Triumphant return to blogging title goes here.

Thadeous hard at work.

I’ve been busy, doing work, and making things.

I’m back! Now imagine that I just wrote a whole paragraph about how awesome it is to be blogging again and how much I’ve missed it. Try to add to the imaginary scenario that it was a tour de force and that you were moved to some kind of emotion. You are either exuberant and over joyed that I am back, angry that I would abandon what is, obviously, my true calling, or mournful that so many years have gone by with little to no correspondence from me pertaining to the world at large. What matters is that you feel something.

Now that I’ve gotten that out of the way it’s time to talk, or write, or read, or whatever. We’ve got much to cover an only 30-40 years in which to cover it. Unless the upcoming election goes poorly, then we may have exponentially less time, but also less to cover as that time goes on. Look at me being topical and in the moment. I’ve missed this, but that was all covered in the previous paragraph. One that is sure to win me some sort of internet writing award, no doubt.

Thadeous with a beard!

It’s me, but now with more hair, in the face area.

As it stands I now have a 2 hour commute each day. I’ll be dedicating an hour of each day to getting a couple blog updates a week. I’m done trying to turn my blog into a business, so no off the wall reviews, unboxings or anything else like that unless it’s something I’m really excited about. I might throw up something about a game I’m playing, a cool new gadget I got, or whatever. For right now the experiment is for me to sit down and just put the digital pen to the electronic page and see what comes out in the wash of mixed metaphors.

Look at me writing a blog about me writing blogs, could I be any more cliché or meta? I doubt it, but then again, I’ve only just begun to start kicking this off. Stick with me for a bit and see where this goes why don’t you? Also watch Dare Devil on Nextflix, not because it has anything to do with my blog but because it’s so fucking kick ass.

Trying to figure out his closing line

Thadeous

Well Dressed Wednesdays: Depression

 

I just got off the phone. Why was I on the phone? It was an interview to do work for a startup. What did I do before the phone interview? I took a shower, shaved, and then put on some damn nice looking cloths. I didn’t need to, I could have just worn the jeans and t-shirt I had been wearing all morning. I’m the same person in both outfits, but I chose to look nice for people who can’t see me. Why would I go through the trouble?

To answer that question I have to explain that I, like so many other people in the world, get depressed. Often I mange to keep up a good front in the face of depression but I still get bogged down in a mire of self doubt and apathy. When this happens I find it hard to write, to respond to email, to create, and to go out and look for work that puts food on my table. Not being able to do these things has a serious effect on my life. First and foremost is the no work thing, I like to eat and have nice things like electricity and an apartment. Going out and finding the contracts I need to keep the bills paid is really important. Beyond that, I love to write and create. Not being able to do these things often makes my mood worse, leading to a spiral that often includes depressing music and lots of ice cream being consumed.

So where does dressing up come in? Well through out my life I have found a few things that help me move past my depression.

Success: Success is a big one, when I manage to make something I am really proud of, or I’m able give an over the top performance on a project it can often snap me out of a funk. The down side to this is that when something is too awesome it often leads to a small bout of depression following. I guess it’s that after I do something that is amazing my regular work feels somehow diminished by it. Nonetheless, I have found that DIY projects, focusing hard on work I have to complete, or trying something new and succeeding really do help with my depression. Sadly there are few projects I can get done on a whim in order to ensure I am pumped up before a phone meeting or interview.

Exercise: I hate it! Well I guess I love it too but I hate the thought of exercise when I’m hard at work doing other things, or hard at work doing nothing at all. I spend an exorbitant amount of time trying to convince myself that I don’t need to go to the gym. Or that I don’t have enough time. Often when I’m in a funk I can do the convincing with little to no effort at all. When I do make it to the gym I often find that my attitude changes almost immediately. Perhaps it has something to do with succeeding; if I can run two or three miles it’s something to be proud of. I’m pretty sure it has something to do with chemicals released into my brain as I work out. I could get more into the science behind it but let’s just say that there are chemicals in my brain, and working out makes the happy chemicals more abundant.

Image:  Image isn’t everything. A lot of people will tell you that it is, but most of the successful people I have met in life will tell you that hard work has a lot to do with it. Also, knowing appears to be at least half of the battle. Really though, image has a lot to do with how I fight my bad moods. When I’m in a funk or depressed, getting dressed can become the same mountainous task the rest of my work is. I tend to wear the same thing, often for days at a time: jeans, a black hoodie , old sneakers and done. Oh I wear underwear too, though the color doesn’t really matter and I do change them daily, cause I know it makes my mom happy.

The simple act of putting on something nice, of wearing something that took effort to put together, somehow helps me break out of my funks. It’s a first step in doing things that need to be done, things I usually avoid when I’m down. When I put together an outfit I like, put it on, and then look in the mirror it’s as if I can see the road leading out of my depression and I can begin to walk that path. It’s not as if I put on a jacket and suddenly I feel all better, but the investing of a little of my time into myself that begins the turnaround.

My style and my image do not determine how my day will go. If I walk out of the house in an old shirt and some ripped jeans I won’t have a bad day. But if I’m having a bad day taking the time time to look better often helps me feel better. I woke up this morning and I was in a darker place, but I had things I needed to get done. Now I look good, and I’m starting to feel better. When I get done writing this I’m going to go to the gym, then come home and get more work done. It’s not all because I got dressed, but it definitely started there.

Geek Out.

Robots and Tardisis (Tardai?) And more!

I can’t help but window shop on the internet. When I do, I always find a million things I would love to have, but either my budget or my respect for my girlfriend prevent me from buying. Here are a couple things I found in the past few days that makes me really wish I had a nerd cave in which I could keep such treasures.

R2D2 lunch bag! 

I mean really, ThinkGeek? Just take my paycheck. Yeah I’m sure your co-workers will get a bit annoyed after they hear R2 beep frantically as you retrieve your lunch from him, but will you care? Hell no, R2D2 is feeding you! Screw those jerks.

Pac Man shot glasses! 

Anyone who knows me knows my love for the man of Pac. I might have a Pac Man tattoo, I might not. Either way, these would make drinking even more fun than it already is. The only thing that would make these better would be the blue scared version of the ghosts on the back of each glass. Also where the hell is Pinky? How could they leave out the best ghost? I mean they left Clyde in but not Pinky? That’s some shit right there.

Tardis trash can!

Honestly I don’t have a trash can at my desk. I really do need one, and if I’m already going to be spending money on a trashcan why not this one? I wonder if it is bigger on the inside than it looks from the outside? Also it makes noise!

This is by no means everything I found in the last few days. Hell, this is only stuff from one site. But you and I both have things to do, so I’ll let you get to yours and I’ll drop more cool things on you later.

 

Geek Out.

 

Look What I Made!

A little over a month ago I moved from Portland, Oregon to Santa Clara, California. When I moved I left behind a pretty stable job and entered the world of the underemployed . I have been trying to pick up some freelance social media work, but that is few and far between at the moment. I thought PAX was going to be a huge boost for me since I met so many awesome new people and tons of them expressed interest in my personal talents and skill set, but the weeks of silence following the show have proved that “out of site, out of mind” is real, and painful. So what have I been doing to keep busy?

DIY!

When we moved we had to decide what to do with our old furniture. Our dressers were in pretty bad shape.

As you can see, our three dressers are pretty much your basic box construction white affairs. Nothing to write a blog about. Since I am sitting on so much free time I decided that I would do something at least slightly creative, so I got out my sander and got to work.

In less than an hour I took this:

And stripped it all down to this:

From there I added a coat of white primer. At first I used primer from a spray can as it goes on very evenly and dries quickly but after 3 cans I decided that for my wallet and my sanity I would switch over to using the brush/roll on instead. I didn’t take any pictures of the primed dresser, mostly because this isn’t a DIY site and this isn’t a step by step post (also, I forgot).

Speaking of forgetting things, I totally forgot to write about step 1, which for me is one of the most important steps, and this is it:

I know I should just go back and drop this in at the beginning but that would take waaaay to much work. Not really, but I also think it’s more fun for step 1 to be somewhere in the middle. I like to enjoy a drink while I’m doing home improvement projects. I don’t get hammered (pun totally intended) but I do like to tie one on, as it were, before I fire up the old power tools. Really I do it so I can blame most of my glaring mistakes on the alcohol, “blame it on the alcohahahahal.” But I digress.

After the primer dried I added a few coats of paint, screwed them up and then sanded and added a few more. Big ups to the Censational Girl blog for the tip about Floetrol. I had totally forgotten about that stuff until I came across this article. Yes I looked up directions on how to paint furniture. It had been years since I had done it. Stop judging me!

The second application of paint was deemed more of a success than the first, but less than I wanted (but I was totally tired of doing it). After it dried, I added the new hardware that Steph had picked out. And that was really all it took. Oh yeah, I did some ding and dent patching with some wood filler and whatnot but I don’t really remember much of it (Thanks, Evan!).

So here is the finished product!

I went with a two tone blue and white with blue tint because I’m hella artistic and am all about interior design and shit. No really, I like the dual tonal look, and it matches with both the walls and the bead sheets. The white and silver hardware also add a cool touch of white to the blue drawers. As you can see I drunkenly forgot to paint the very bottom of the whole thing so next weekend I’m gonna haul it all back out to the garage and fix that little oversight.

Here is close of up the hardware just because:

So there you have it. I redid a couple of dressers and I have one more to go. Sadly, you should not expect more of these DIY posts in the near future since some jackass decided to break into my garage and steal all of my power tools. Now I’m underemployed and can’t do projects. At least I can still drop mad rhymes! (not really)  🙁

A parting thought: I really like doing things like this and I am actually thinking about recording myself while doing them. Kind of a DIY for the Drunk Guy show. If I manage not to lose any fingers while doing it I might actually post them on You Tube or something.

Geek Out.